Of tests, and justice
Few things I've learned in the last few years I'll share:
Being on the same side of a war as someone is not a guarantee of their ethical behavior. Conversely, unethical behavior does not disqualify nor invalidate someone's service in your common war.
Unethical people will even exploit your PTSD and purposefully trigger you in an attempt to rewrite history, gaslight you and cheat you. This is, above all, a test.
Life will offer you tests like that, which you will not recognize until they are over, and they will set the course of your life.
Sometimes, they are tests of wisdom, or responsibility; other times, endurance, or perspicacity, or ethicality. Sometimes you will be tested on your ability to understand when something is going wrong, or accept when something is going right; sometimes you will be tested on your compassion, and those will be among the most important tests of your life.
You will usually not know what you are being tested on.
The only thing that you can really ever do about it is to try to do the right thing, even when no one is watching, all the time.
There is a common misconception that justice is an abstract quantity inhering to some outcomes versus others; this is an abstruse, idealistic myth.
Exposing a massive and obvious wrong to the world does not reliably result in justice. If you disagree, I invite you to look up any of the sanctioned entities I've identified on Facebook, in flagrant violation of U.S. sanctions law and Meta Community Standards.
Lawsuits and judgments do not reliably result in justice. I think back to the first political candidate I really ever operated on behalf of, Doug Jones in the '17 special election in Alabama. The terrorist incident he prosecuted, the 16th Street Baptist Church bombing, happened in 1963; Jones' prosecutions happened in 2001 and 2002.
Even according a privileged place to the voices of victims doesn't reliably lead to justice. Following that paradigm would have privileged Emmitt Till's accuser over Emmitt Till; it would be as abuseable for the purposes of atrocity as ignoring the voices of victims altogether.
Justice, as I've learned, is not a process, nor an adjective, nor something that is granted.
In my world, I've learned that justice is something that has to be earned.
Finally, against all the tests that life offers you and all the injustices of the world, a secret plan to do the right thing, that only you know, can sometime be an immensely powerful thing.